Recovering from an Eating Disorder

I thought I'd never heal. I thought I would always be "weird."

I spent most of my time binge eating and purging through fasting and exercise. It was the way I had learned to cope with my life and to distract myself from my fears and emotional pain. It was my life raft amidst a stormy ocean. The pain of doing this however was becoming greater as it took up a lot of my time and mostly just left me feeling miserably full and alone or miserably empty.

There were many things that I am grateful for as a part of my path to healing. I feel that healing is like following the pebble trail of happy colored pebbles. If you follow the path of fun, anything that feels good, it will eventually lead the way. Trust is important, for without trust, you will lose faith. When we lose faith we want to give up.

Learning how to cook from my boyfriend, learning how to workout from a friend, and learning how to deal with my emotions from a couple of different healers and therapists was the way for me. Everyone has their own path and you will know your path by the joy of it.